Feel loved! (part 1 - your divine nature)
I had a recent conversation with a dear friend about feeling God’s love. Do we as women feel His love? I’ve met so many who feel “less than”, who feel not worthy of it or not “equal” in His sight and I just cannot fathom it! The world is waging a war of the sexes, always has and always will. Any opportunity the enemy can take to create divisiveness HE WILL (and let me assure you my friends that the enemy is real and there are forces all around us working for our good or for our destruction). So, I want to take a moment to share with you how I see it… .and feel it!
As women, how can we not look at our natural giftings and see the love God has for His daughters. He trusts us with the most sacred work in partnering with Him in the creation of LIFE! Now, yes, men have equal part in the initial creation of that life, but women have a powerful and singular part in giving of themselves to grow, protect, nurture and feed that life. We then have the distinct privilege of ushering that life from Heaven to Earth side. It is a sacred, divine, and life changing work. To see His trust in us is humbling and I feel His love. I think motherhood does give us a leg up in developing charity, which is the pure love of Christ! My husband agrees wholeheartedly. He has said that it is obvious that women are more natural givers and more willingly sacrifice of themselves for the good of others, generally speaking,
I see it all around me. I see women who drop everything to rescue a friend drowning in the overwhelm of life. I see women who give of their precious sleep, time and time again, to soothe frightened or sick children. I see women who work tirelessly on the clock only to clock out and jump right back to being everything to everyone within the walls of their homes. I see women who fight hard for balance to ensure their husbands know how loved they are, even if that means single handedly doing the dreaded nighttime routine early so they can create some precious alone time. I see women unable (yet) to experience motherhood firsthand who serve and pour themselves into nurturing other’s children, filling voids and bringing relief. I see women who without hesitation open their hearts and home to children born through another and become mother in the most beautiful way. I see women who care for their mothers and fathers as the struggles of age befall them. I see women who give intentional smiles to strangers. I see women who open themselves up and make friends with someone new in the checkout line or playground because they value the worth of souls and connection. I see women and I see divinity. I see an incredibly beautiful and well thought out design. I see and feel love and I am a flawed imperfect human. How much more must our Father in Heaven love and cherish us!?
Now, for those of you who have not yet experienced the miracle of creating and carrying life. I SEE YOU! I WAS you! I know that Mother’s Day can feel like a dreaded event that reminds you of what you desire and seemingly lack. I remember! However, let me assure you, that you are every bit as loved by God. You are not forsaken. You are not forgotten. He is creating something so much more of you than you can imagine. I know it is so hard to see it from where you stand, but He is THERE and He is working in and through you. The sooner you trust Him, the sooner you will find true joy and peace in this season.
I literally would NOT take back one single year of the ELEVEN years I waited. Parts of that journey were ugly and hard. But, when I shifted my mindset and spoke life into my reality as a mother, however God intended me to become one, I found opportunities to develop skills and create precious connections that would have been impossible with the house full of babies I desired at that time. My mindset did not shift AFTER I finally had children. My happiness didn’t come AFTER my 1st pregnancy. It came long BEFORE. I remember distinctly surrendering my will and saying “I trust you!”, “I know you love me”, “I know you are aware of me and desire for me to have the righteous desires of my heart”… and with each statement, I felt OVERWHELMING love! He has such a beautiful story prepared for you. Seek His love and feel the peace and direction that only He can give. If you build it, they will come! Whether your journey is meant to be through the precious gift of adoption or through the healing of your own body, you WILL be a mother! You already have the opportunity to “mother”. Find a tired friend and hold their sweet tiny baby while they take a nap. Soak in the sweetness and trust that an infant gives to anyone willing to hold and snuggle them. Take your nieces and nephews and create precious memories, wear that “world’s best Aunt” shirt with PRIDE. One of my greatest gifts during my infertility journey was to serve the youth at my church. I opened up to them and shared with the teenage girls I was called to serve the vulnerable parts of my story. I asked them to pray with and for me. Those girls gave me so much purpose. They were a light and inspiration to me. Loving them taught me that I truly could love a child born through another as my own and I fully surrendered to the idea that I may never birth a baby, but that adoption could be the amazing vehicle to receive my gift! Pour yourself into service and become the best version of yourself as an individual and couple and you will have no regrets! I promise!
So, there it is friends, sisters, mothers, daughters… I love you! You inspire me! You give of yourself in countless ways and want nothing in return. You are no accident. You are on purpose. You have amazing gifts, talents and abilities, many of which you may not have even discovered yet! And… if I love you… oh how much MORE God loves you!